I decided to stretch my photo editing legs a little bit...its really simple but i just started.

Sleepless nights

So you know those nights where you just can't sleep?

That's tonight for me.

I don't really have a reason why...probably too much caffine...

but really, Im 18 years old and I have a life that is ahead of me yet i feel like Im missing something.

Im not content. And I always hear people say and talk about the God sized hole in your heart. Well I have God...and it's an Awesome thing. I am really connected to God, but I feel like there is still something missing.

I still have a hole. Maybe that's why I can't sleep....

Grad school

So I am going to Oxford for my Masters in Theology or Philosophy!

Just thought you might want to know.

The absence of Marriage

So I have recently discovered that I really don't have any desire to get married.

Here's why...

It will take far too much time. First you have to cultivate a friendship which in my mind takes at least 6 months to a year if not longer. Then you have to cultivate a relationship. Which again takes a long time. And Im more talking about the time that you put into the relationship e.g. the emotional time, physical time, and mental time.

Then you have to get engaged and plan the wedding, which takes more time.

Then you get married...and you have to put in all your time until your dead.

I have too many dreams and desires. I don't think I could fit marriage in.

Emotions

So I have discovered that emotions can evade the truth or they can proclaim it.

chapel sermon

Brian Mills speaks of the tragedy of Hurrican Katrina. He ended up going with a team down to New Orleans and in detail described the different aspects of tragedy of our fallen world through examples he collided with last week. Tragedy is always and easy sermon illustration because you can hit people hard with it, but what about the lack of joy?

Or just the lack of something, in reality being God. Stepping on the tube, or walking in the streets of London, knowing God is absent. To look into a student's eyes and encounter intellectually what happens when two religions/lifestyles collide. Sitting there and realizing God's grace and love is not a logical solution to the fall of humanity, but that is how God responded. Knowing that even though the actions of Christ are not logical still does not make me give up what I know is truth. Christ is truth, and deep down I know that I would not be able to walk away from that. I could walk away from the lifestyle of Christianity but in the end I would be denying myself life. We speak of tragedy and the philosophy of human suffereing, and those things seem to define who we are. Yet when you walk into a city that has evaded the light in such a decieving way you soon realize that human suffering can no longer define our identity. God continues to pull us out of our "security" in our human indentification and calls us to be wholly in Christ.

Im back....

Christian T-shirt

I am totally against Christian merchandise. It makes me sick sometimes.

So I was sitting in IDS (which if you have read my blog latltey you have noticed that I talk a lot about IDS. I really don't know why but its a class that gets me thinking), anyway I looked at a girl in front of me and the whole class I was trying to figure out what the back of her t-shirt said.

I finally got to read it and this is what it said.

Live your life so the preacher won't have to lie at your funeral.

That's a story of Christian love? Yet the message is kind of intriguing.

What do you think?

My brother

I love my brother, he makes me laugh.