Making a Concious Decision.

Last night I made a decision that I will probably regret in the future.

I have made the decision to become a vulnerable person.

I guess it sounds silly but I think it will be good for me. I so often forget that Christ can be seen in mankind, because I have such a negative and disappointing viewpoint of humanity. Partly because I see all of us as fallen and partly because I secretly have no hope for anything man does.

It sounds weird because I am in love with the church, but I have such a hard time with the people. I guess I have been put in a 'leadership' position so many times that I have gotten so used to keeping things to myself. I view man as an enemy in the mission of the church. But, people are not the enemy, sin is.

I also fail to realize that the Holy Spirit has no desire in a leader who is not willing to be taught. So last night I said out loud that that if I am going to be vulnerable with people it needs to be a conscious decision on my part.

I am putting myself out there for the world to spit on, and throw things at.

But I know that I am not on my own, and that everything I am trying to represent revolves around Christ himself. So, I think this is a good step in the right direction.