Tasting the Darkness

Tasting the Darkness...

It's like a hand reaching down into the depths of my throat and tearing out the ability to speak His name.

You know it's happening when you are lying in bed and all you can think about is the destruction and the despair that surrounds you.

It's like screaming until your vocal cords bleed, in a deaf crowd.

The night is not the worst part, it's the moments that come right before it and right after it. The moments when the goose bumps don't come. The moments that are completely silent. The moments when walking across your room to get to the door leaves you as vulnerable as a new born baby.

Tasting the Darkness...

It's when you know that the blood that was spilt was not in vain.

It's like having no emotions in a state when one should have all of the emotions in the world.

Those who have truly experienced it choose to remain silent because to explain the actualities of the events seems utterly unrealistic. Those who have truly experienced it do not have words for such an unrealistic event.

It's like trying to explain the worst moment of your life in the third dimension. Most of us can only experience events in the first dimension because our emotions get the best of us, but when the emotions are removed the third dimension becomes clear.

Those who have experienced have and underlying challenge to cope with it in their daily lives. These individuals have a knowledge of the safe places and the unsafe places and know that it will never stop.

Tasting the darkness presents the idea that there is no hope. Nothing can save us from the invisible ideas that are haunting every one of us.

This is seen in every conversation, in every song, in every single moment.

Tasting the darkness is not terrifying but it is sad. Sorrow and Grief are the syamese children that are seen waltzing around the darkened ball room.

These children waltz around with a slight smirk on their faces because they have brought to you a sense of utter despair. The scene of you in pain brings them a slight satisfaction.

And when you encounter these twins yourself all you want to do is bleed so you can feel the pain that you have no control over.

While tasting the darkness can leave us endangered, tasting the light brings us the hope that is distinguished.

Tasting the light is like receiving a bolt of lightning go through your body. It is a sensation that leaves one in absolute silence for a moment but allows them to shout about what has been done and felt shortly after.

After one has tasted the light one clings to it like it is the last thing on the earth. Nothing else matters, nothing else can take it away.

The light becomes something that you beg for. Your spirit becomes poor and begs for the light like a homeless outcast.

Tasting the darkness will wound you but tasting the light with heal you.

Tasting the darkness will tear your foundation down but tasting the light will build it back up.

Tasting the darkness with lie to you but tasting the light with tell you the truth.

Tasting the darkness with cripple you but tasting the light will push you to run.

Tasting the darkness will pervert you but tasting the light will purify you.

Tasting the darkness will imprison you but tasting the light will set you free.

Tasting the darkness will put a sign around your neck saying you are worthless but tasting the light will put a sign on your neck saying that you are a great prince or princess.

Tasting the darkness will suck the life out of your lungs but tasting the light will breath life into your lungs.

Tasting the Light....